Wednesday, December 6, 2006

government policies that suck

just a small incident today that lit a fuse in me i thought i would share. I went to the alberta registries to order a birth cirtificate for my daughter. Because she was born in British Columbia they gave me a B.C. form that i had to mail away. A couple hours later i had lost the form (my kids had lost the form, but i take responsibility) so i went back to get another one. A different woman was behind the desk and she said it cost me 2$. Two bux for a peice of paper. I told her the first woman did not charge me for the form. She said," yah well it's two dollars and she should have charged you for it." Steam came out of my ears I'm sure. So I paid the money and she said, "have a nice day." I walked out. Then when I get home what's the first thing I see laying in plain sight? THE FIRST FORM!!!! talk about ticked off! So if anybody needs to order a birth, marriage, or death certificate from B.C. just call me and I'd be happy to photocopy one of my forms for you so you dont have to succumb to another government scam.

Wednesday, September 6, 2006

my heros


I've been thinking lately about the people that have influenced my life for good. This is a working list because even if you've done some sensational boost for my self-esteem i may have forgotten you. here it goes:


Eve - for making her own decisions
Rachel - because her story helped me decide to get married
Moroni - because he was lonely for so long, but still strong
Joseph Smith - because he restored the gospel
Joan of Arc - because she was a fighter
Hildegard Von Bingen - for composing such beautiful music and art, and for escaping the oppressive status of women.
Grace O'Malley - she was an irish pirate for over 50 years, and was never caught.
Pocahontas - for her bravery and because i'm her descendant
Pearl S. Buck - For knowing how to help children, and for being such a good author
The Doss Family - for adopting 12 mixed race children and making it work (see photo)
Maya Angelou - For keeping hold of her roots and for her eloquent and strong poetry
Sarah McLaughlin - she has a beautiful voice and she helped me through a bit of a depression Jeff Buckley - for the same thing as Sarah
Hilda Reid - she raised my father by herself and he turned out pretty cool.
Leone Sorensen - she inspired me to be self sufficient with food and gardening

i know i'm missing people and i didnt include any personal relations (besides my grandmothers) because that gets a bit complicated. Tell me who i've missed and maybe even make your own list.

Monday, August 14, 2006

where have i gone?

my life has changed with this move to lethbridge and i havent been committed at all to this blog. i'm sorry to those of you who have been checking it and havent seen anything new. I'm still here and i promise to update alittle more often. i caught myself getting depressed so i've challenged myself to get out of it. In case yall want some recent news, i turned thirty last week and now that it's over i can accept it. the approach was more nerve racking than passing the hurdle. I am where i want to be at 30 besides the fact that i'm not famous yet. In other news jay and i have put in our paper work (finally) for our next adoption (i think this is the last one) . I would love to adopt internationally, but i cant justify the expense when a local adoption is so much less. so if any of you know someone with 12 g's that they dont need and want to give it to me for the sake of aquiring children just pass it my way. in the mean time, please send me your favorite quotes and i'll let yall know which one i like best. cheers.

Wednesday, July 5, 2006

the veiw from my window

this house
and twisted chimney of sandy bricks
that doesnt quite reach up to the sky
that doesnt reach up over the roof
but rather melts down on top of it
wilted
a breathing hole
for the creature submerged in the domestic ocean beneath
the summer heat escapes slowly from within
curious of the source, the pines trees surrounding
this house
lean slightly
peaking through the vent shaft
dark echoing burrow
and are melted
limp
with boredom
the scadaleous smoke is so transparent
dripping with silly sweat
the trees might find luck
if they lean over the next house.

Sunday, June 11, 2006



good bye old house. i'm going to miss you. while i was gutting you, you were hugging me.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

elimination of discrimination

While sorting through my masses of junk I found this speech that I had written in high school. Just wanted to share it with everyone:
Elimination of discrimination (1994)
We all know that judging people is inappropriate. There is no honest religion or honest government that teaches otherwise. Every person is free to choose their life and what they will be, therefore we are agents unto ourselves. We choose our imperfections. None of us are good enough or wise enough to judge another human mind. None of us can perfectly temper justice and mercy enough to punish or reward a man or woman to the extent that they deserve. It doesnt matter if you are the world's best scholar you are still out of line to judge another, whether it be race gender, handicap, or even simple things like taste in music, clothing, or the car they drive. An associate once took Abraham Lincoln the task for his attitude towards his enemies. "Why do you try to make friends of them? You should try to destroy them." He replied," Am I not destroying my enemies when I make them my friends?" He also said,” Quarrel not at all. No man who is resolved to make the most of himself can spare time for personal contention. Better give your path to a dog than be bitten by him." A person cannot deny the humanity of another without diminishing his own humanity. How can we mock those who have nothing while we ourselves have nothing? WE need to be able to live in harmony. The wife of Richard Nixon once said," Harmony is the ability to differ, not to disagree." We are all unique and these differences should be praised, not punished. Quoting Mark Twain," Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can read."

Monday, May 8, 2006

sexist advertising


something's been really bothering me and it's the portrayal of women in the media. Of course we are all disgusted by the overuse of the female body to sell products. But there is a more subtlety disturbing portrayal of woman and it is that of the "perfect mom". Not all advertising is bad, but I'll give you an example of one that is. the scenario is a mother, perfectly groomed standing in her immaculate kitchen, making food for her family while they all sit at the table waiting for her. everyone is smiling, nobody is helping her, and nobody says thank you when she brings over some gourmet desserts. is this a perfect world? the woman is still depicted as a servant and the husband and children are taking advantage of her. here is another example: the husband is holding a toilet bowl cleaner, not sure how to use it, and currently on the phone to his wife who has to remind him of the chores that she previously assigned to him. maybe this is supposed to be a funny way of showing that woman really can be the boss, but underneath that you realize that she has always done all the cleaning. our young boys see these commercials and think that maybe that's the way women are supposed to be treated. our young girls see them and think, maybe that's all women are good for. Now I kind of like cooking and i realize that cleaning has to be done. i am honoured to be responsible for a family, but the hidden messages i am getting sometimes insult my intelligence. the worst of course is the false sence of importance and pride a woman is supposedly supposed to feel for her ability to flaunt her body. what about the theory that it seems like the only way to control a man is by arousing his faculties. Is that all we've got?

Thursday, April 27, 2006

kindergarten


just ran into a little trouble lately with enroling iarnan in kindergarten. we will probably be moving to lethbridge before he starts or was supposed to start in september. You see, his birthday is in feb, and cut off day in edmonton is march, but cut off day in lethbridge is dec. So here I was thinking he was going, and now that we are moving he is not. did he suddenly become unready or not smart enough? maybe the kids in lethbridge arent ready as fast as the kids in edmonton. ? do i have to resort to homeschooling?

Sunday, April 16, 2006

i planted my seedlings for spring. i'm trying tomatos for the first time. i've realized that hokey myth about gardening making you feel better is actually true. i can sit and stare at my plants growing and i literally will feel good. i would even go so far as to say excited. and what is better than playing in dirt? i used to think there was no point to flowers because i couldnt eat them and i should focus my efforts on vegtables. than i grew my first flowers and spent too long staring at them. i love them. if you need some therapy, grow some plants. here are a few i recomend that are hardy and grow fast: hostas- out door perenial. yucca plant- indoor tropical. rhubarb- outdoor perenial (grows big and easy to cook with). day lily- outdoor perenial that flowers all summer. pumkins- all you need is one and you'll be eating it for months and its amazing how many recipes you can make. Anyways, now i sound like a total green thumb, but the glory of plants is they are easy to replace when they die.

Friday, March 24, 2006

my girls

here's a pic of some shawls that i made made for my girls. i'm proud of them (my girls and the shawls)

some stats about babies

"The attacks on the family also undermine the value of life—particularly the life of the unborn. Life is being trivialized and subjected to the vacillating whims of convenience and political correctness. You will find it troubling, as I do, that between 1950 and 1997, some 46 industrialized countries and 9 developing nations legalized or removed most restrictions on abortion. Each year an estimated 46 million abortions take place worldwide. Indeed, some estimate induced abortions end one-fourth of all pregnancies. Far too many people view marriage as a “couples relationship,” designed to fulfill the emotional needs of adults rather than an institution for rearing children. Children are considered a choice rather than a blessing. About one million children per year experience parental divorce and its aftermath, and about one-third of all children in America are born out of wedlock. Almost every trend indicates that we are on a slippery slope downward from God’s plan for His children. The family, once universally hailed as the cornerstone of society, is losing its essential role." quoted from Elder M. Russll Ballard March Ensign 2006

Monday, March 20, 2006

list of things to do

do you ever write a list of things you have to or want to get done? do you do it to feel accomplished when you cross things off? my list is so silly, but i have this desperation building up that i HAVE to do these things: inventize my pantry, index my recipe books, do my taxes etc. are among the more seemingly useless and boring things on my list. what is the big picture? I want to be organized, for what? i am in control of my destiny and an indexed recipe book it going to proove that to the world or at least to my mother-in-law when she comes to visit/ inspect my house. i also want to save starving kids in africa but that's not on my list. I want to record a solo album, but that's not on my list either. maybe because they are impossible. so what is on your list?

Tuesday, March 7, 2006

some pics of my kids

i wonder what the line is between taking some time off for you sanity and being selfish? i heard that a woman has to take a total of two weeks every year away from her family or she'll go insane. i also heard that god created children' s faces to be so cute that you love them no matter what they do to you. the irony of it is, every time i do get a break from them all i do is think about how cute they are.

Monday, February 20, 2006

too busy

i'm sorry i havent been keeping this blog updated. i've been feeling very weighed down and i dont take enough time out. If everyone who reads this wouldnt mind using this post to update me on what's new in their lives or tell me your favorite saying so i can feel in touch with y'all! here's my favorite saying "the wounds of a friend are sweeter than the kisses of an enemy".

Monday, February 13, 2006

back to my roots

i had an interesting conversation last night. it started out about the uselessness of daylight savings and evolved into the role on nature influence our schedules. i compared a pioneer to the modern day businessman. what has changed? how have we lost our dependency on nature and relied on technology. i dont think we have really moved forward, in fact i think our health is suffering. let me give you an example; before electricity man worked according to the schedule of the sun. we ate according to what we could grow and preserve according to the seasons. we traveled according to permitting weather. now days modern "conveniences" allow us to spend less time on survival and more time working. we work despite the darkness or the weather. we eat what ever we want because of international trade, refrigeration, and microwave ovens. we probably dont even cook it ourselves and half of what we consume isnt even real. we travel because there is no excuse to stay home anymore. winter is no longer a "recuperation time". there is no rest. i thought perhaps God intended us to follow the schedule of the earth and we have defied Him in our attempt to be better humans. can you think of other examples? i would love to hear some comments on this.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

what have i become?


so the most recent post on lisbeth's fruit basket has got me thinking about how much i have mellowed out in the last 9 years. 9 years ago i was a periced tatooed punk that loved to hate people. i didnt think anything mattered and i definetly wasnt doing it for the attention. Now i think i am a little too self centered and i try really hard to be considerate an not talk about myself too much. this blog, as my outlet, might not reflect that last statement, but i would like to think in the last 9 years i have greatly improved. let me give you an example: the other day a car came ripping down our street while my kids were out on the front lawn, my neighbour yelled out to slow down and i thought she was completly justified in her comment. the driver just flipped her the bird and yelled f%&* you and kept going. i was furious. i thought how can he be so insensitive, there are children here, cant he think about others? then i remembered that i had once, 9 years ago, done the same thing. i had been in that racing car, caring for no one and trying to tick people off. why? why did i do it? and the only answer i could think of was that i wanted attention. so what did i prove? i proved that i was a textbook rebelious teenager. even when i was trying so hard to break out of every mold, i fit perfectly into one. i am trying not to be disappointed with myself, because i never thought at the time that i would be on the other side of the coin. well lucky me that i grew out of it. it was just a phase just like everyone said it would be.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

5 weird things about me

i've been challenged to share 5 weird things about myself, i'm not sure what constitutes weird but i'll try to impress y'all. 1. i used to have a pet boa constrictor that bit me once and left his tooth embedded in my finger for a couple of days. 2. i had a tooth (my own tooth) growing backwards (up in to my nose) and had to get it removed. when i went in for oral surgery all my teeth fell out and they had to sew them back into my mouth 3. i've done all my own piercing with either a sewing needle or a safety pin. this includes a surface piercing on my arm.
4. I shot my dad once. it was an accident. we were doing target practice and the ball ricocheted off the target and hit him in the chest. luckily it was only a pellet gun, but it still sounds cool.
5. i was the lead singer in a grunge/punk band once. we were named the Vanduras and besides the occasional fistfight, i think we had a lot of fun. once we opened for the smalls.
so there's my list. it is interesting to note that all of the things (except #4) that i thought were the weirdest about me happen when i was single with no kids. I have voluntarily sacrificed my weirdness for a husband, home and family. at least i'll have some good stories to tell my kids. p.s. my challenge to divulge the same on their blog goes out to seaneria.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

arid

i have forgotten where i am
my thoughts are drifted sand
far
my bearings are lost amidst ocean waves
wayfaring
the sunny sky spreading a blanket out
on my heavenly picnic
dissolve any bridge to the dry ground
but im not there
the glamorous carribean cruise of youth
sets sail
releases its clasp
and i have to go back to the now i have selected.

Saturday, January 7, 2006

in balance

reality is not seeing things the way they are. it is seeing things the way we are.

when are you converted?

today a very good friend of mine is getting baptized. he has been going to church for over 4 years as faithful, if not more than some regular members. i thought it took him a long time to decide if the church was true and if he should join. but then i thought how long did it take me? i was eight when i was baptized and i changed my mind so many times afterwards. when was i converted? what did it take? a wise woman once asked me "how does one become a butterfly? you must want to fly so badly that you are willing to give up being a catepillar. if you knew that your number one priority in life was to save your own soul, would you change some of your choices?"* this retorical question can only be answered by our own consience. our number one proirity in life is to save our own soul. joseph, you have been a great example to me today.

*takahashi

Tuesday, January 3, 2006

the election

i am going to tell everyone who i'm voting for and why. my descision is based on one thing only because it is the most important to me. I am a mother and as you all know i stay at home to be the primary care giver to my three children. the liberals want to start a "daycare program" that allows mothers to have their children shoved into daycares so they can ignore them and go back to work and pay the government INCOME TAX. conservatives want to give mothers an allowance to do with as they see fit for the bennifit of their children. the liberals say the conservatives have no morals regarding the sanctity of child care and that it is a waste of money. Harper may be abrasive, he may even wear lipstick in public but he has my vote.
The whole country is not in daycare.